THE APPLE ON THE BEDSIDE
My name is Emily Carter.
If someone had asked me ten years ago, “Emily, what do you think about marriage?”, I would have smiled confidently and answered without hesitation: “Marriage is the safest place a woman can lean on.”
I truly believed that — with all my youth, my pride, and my naïve heart.
The man who made me believe that was Daniel Carter — my husband.
We had known each other for ten years. We started as friends, became lovers, and eventually, life partners.
Three years of friendship.
Seven years of love.
Then marriage.
Ten years — long enough for me to think I knew everything about the man beside me.
On our wedding day, our friends called us a “model couple.” Daniel was calm and gentle. I was soft-spoken and steady. We both had stable jobs, bought a suburban house with a mortgage of over 450,000 USD, owned a car, and had a clear plan for children.
I thought I was a lucky woman.
1. MARRIAGE IS NOTHING LIKE WHAT I IMAGINED
Marriage didn’t collapse overnight.
There were no dramatic arguments. No betrayal at first. No screaming or violence.
It simply… wore me down.
In the first months after the wedding, Daniel still cared. He texted to ask if I had eaten lunch, helped me cook dinner when he came home. But little by little, he changed — as if marriage were a finish line, not a journey that still required effort.
Daniel’s days became identical.
Go to work.
Come home.
Eat dinner.
Climb into bed.
He never asked how my day went. Never asked how I felt. Never asked what I was going through. If I tried to talk, he listened half-heartedly, eyes fixed on his phone.
I told myself, “Men are like that.”
I did all the housework. Daniel rarely offered help. If I asked, he would do it — but with an annoyed expression, as if I were inconveniencing him.
Then I got pregnant.
2. AFTER GIVING BIRTH — THE TIME I LOST MYSELF
Our first child, Lucy, was born on a rainy night. Daniel was there in the delivery room, holding my hand. At that moment, I believed again: “At least, he is a good father.”
Three years later, I gave birth to our second child — Ethan.
This time, everything was different.
I was exhausted. My body no longer felt like my own. I gained nearly 15 kilograms. My stomach sagged. My breasts changed completely because I breastfed exclusively.
Every night, I woke up again and again with the baby in my arms. Daniel slept soundly beside me, unaware of everything.
Every morning, I stood in front of the mirror and didn’t recognize the woman staring back.
My breasts — once something I was confident about — were now soft, drooping, and unfamiliar. I knew it was natural. I knew every woman went through this. But knowing didn’t mean I could accept it.
Some nights, I stood in front of the mirror for a long time, hands trembling, tears falling silently because I was afraid the baby would wake up.
I needed comfort.
But Daniel never noticed.
3. THE JAR OF CREAM THAT BROKE ME
One evening, Daniel came home late and placed a small bag on the table.
“What’s that?” I asked.
“Something for you,” he replied.
“For me? What is it?”
He pulled out a small jar — English words printed on the label, with an uncomfortable, suggestive image.
My heart tightened instantly.
“It’s a cream,” Daniel said calmly. “For… improving your chest.”
I felt dizzy.
“What did you just say?”
“You can see it yourself,” he shrugged. “After giving birth… it’s changed too much.”
It felt like a slap across my face.
We argued — violently.
For the first time in our marriage, I shouted:
“Do you know who I sacrificed my body for?”
Daniel raised his voice too:
“I’m just trying to help you! Look at yourself!”
The argument ended in silence. I refused to use the cream and shoved it into a drawer.
But I didn’t know then — that was only the beginning of the nightmare.
4. THE APPLE ON THE BEDSIDE
A few days later, I started noticing something strange.
Every night, on Daniel’s side of the bed, there was an apple.
At first, it was a small apple.
A few nights later, a bigger one.
Sometimes red. Sometimes green.
I found it odd.
“Why do you keep an apple here?” I asked.
Daniel didn’t answer. He just smirked.
I thought he was planning to eat it at night.
Until one night, I couldn’t take it anymore.
“Daniel, please tell me. Why do you keep putting apples on the bedside table?”
He turned to me, his eyes cold.
“To remind you.”
“To remind me of what?”
He picked up the apple and squeezed it lightly in his hand.
“Look at it. If you don’t use the cream, one day your body will be just like this — soft, sagging, useless. No different from an apple left out too long.”
I froze.
My ears rang. My heart raced out of control.
The man lying next to me — the man I had loved for ten years — was humiliating me, threatening me, reducing my body to an object.
I turned away, tears pouring down my face.
That night, I didn’t sleep.
5. I WANTED TO RUN AWAY
The next morning, Daniel went to work as if nothing had happened.
I held Ethan in my arms, watched Lucy playing on the floor, and for the first time in my life, I thought about packing a suitcase and leaving.
I was scared.
Not because Daniel hit me — he never did.
But because he made me believe I was no longer worth anything.
I started showing signs of postpartum depression.
I cried without reason.
I lost my appetite.
I was afraid of mirrors.
I was afraid of nighttime.
The apple kept appearing every night.
Like a cruel reminder.
6. THE DECISION
One afternoon, I took my baby to see a therapist.
She looked at me for a long time and then said:
“Emily, you are not crazy. You are hurt.”
Those words broke me.
That night, I packed my things.
Not much. Clothes for the children. Documents. And some cash — about 3,000 USD I had saved secretly.
I placed a piece of paper on Daniel’s bedside table.
Just one sentence:
“I am not an apple for you to judge freshness. I am a human being.”
I pulled my suitcase out of the house.
And I didn’t look back.
7. AFTER THAT
I didn’t file for divorce immediately.
But I left.
I needed to live — for myself, and for my children.
Maybe this marriage can still be saved.
Maybe it can’t.
But I know one thing for certain:
No woman deserves to be broken simply because her body has given life to two children.
